I was all excited but…
i know you. When you’re not that happy about something you show it so well. Plus you keep trying to cover it up with a fake smile. I unfortunately remember how making you proud was so hard to do. But I will some day. And when I do my ultimate goal will be accomplished.
sorry this is confusing
2 out of 3 worries out of the way
i actually have so many worries hahah but once this last worry is out of the way I’ll be gooood. Hope hope hope hope hope
College is like a war
Okay this is about to sound dumb probably, but I thought about it while driving 800000 miles to school today so here it is:
College is like a war. A war that you’re excited about at first, but quite fearful at the same time. Not everyone makes it out of this war untouched. All of the classes you enroll in are like the little battles in a war. Some are won while others might not be. Your major you declare is like choosing your most important weapon you are going to use throughout the entire war. This weapon definitely has significant affect on what battles you will be fighting. Your professors can either be on your side or your enemy. Some love to aid you during your war while others don’t give a shit. Some battles are super interesting whereas others are boring (you needed to fight the boring battles to get your general ed out of the way).
The friends you make in college and the ones you’ve maintained from prior years are like your allies. Allies are much needed in this war. Be careful though because these people you consider Allies can certainly turn their back on you and leave you fighting this war alone. Allies change and some stop making the efforts to be there in your time of need. It’s okay to trust your Allies, but use your gut feeling if something doesn’t seem right about them. You must remember to appreciate the Allies that do stick around to help you and definitely do the same back to them.
When you lose a battle (fail a class) it feels like you are wounded. You are not paralyzed though. That means you must get back up and continue on fighting the war. Look at losing a battle as a way of gaining a new strategy. Not every battle is going to be won and that is OKAY (unless you’re alexander the great)
Procrastination is like waking up late on a battle day. It allows your enemy to sneak up on you (enemy being homework, essays, midterms etc.) and gain an unfair advantage. Don’t let this happen because believe me it will make it ten times harder to win a battle.
When your war’s ending is near, be proud of yourself. It’s okay if it might of took you 5 years instead of 4 to win your war. It doesn’t matter how long it takes you to win, all it matters is that you got there. You will lose alot during your war, but you will gain so much at the same time. You will cry. You will laugh. You will fall. You will hate. You will love. You will have fun. You will be overwhelmed. You will want to give up but won’t. But most of all you will live.
My first year of college isn’t over yet but it will be in about three weeks. I’ve lost a battle, but won a few too. I’ve woken up late on a battle day. I’ve made some allies. I’ve learned new strategies and I’m still learning. I don’t know what my second year of this war will bring, but I’m somewhat ready to fight it. I will win this war.
summer school
fuck you growl seriously FUCK YOU! Why can’t i register for summer school without having to fight a freaking war? I’m pissed, oh man I’m pissed. Now excuse me while i go off to work at the happiest place on earth.
Get shit done list
-Ace my psychology test
-Save up 200 dollars
-Get back on my english grind and get shit done with my essays
-Actually read for economics
-Eat better (hahah)
-Get fitter (double hahah)
-At least finish spring quarter with Bs
-Stop doubting myself
-Continue job hunting
-Get Happy
-Spend more time with nana<3
-Get shit done
-Be a better bearah overall
